phycology AGM....damm....memoreble...ha..

Today is phycology society AGM...i tot just go there to listen any activity going to be held for the coming months...i had given the opportunity to be voted for a tresurer of phycology society..but..after i introduced myself they told me"accounting student can't hold a position in other course based society...tat's y tey just collect rm5 from us"they said dis is the rule set by UTAR...i really hate to being like tat...hate dis feeling so much....din tell everyone at the 1st time they join...sad thing...

I dunno why i really felt jealous when my boy holding a position as chairman while i'm not the either one...i scare he will go flirt others gal, or keep telling me to trust him...but ending with a lie behind me...i really really scare being lied by someone...hate the feeling and tat really hurt me a lot... The wound in my heart still there will not change or recover forever ba?i really dunno...i hate the feeling of being abandon when he busy wif his stuff...nt even look at me...sometimes i really wondering is he love me?or just me bertepuk sebelah tangan?although we had maintain this relationship for almost 4 years but why dis feeling keep flashing across my mind??do i need to gt some recommendation from counsellor?shall i?

But...sorry to dear also...is me made us unhappy...i dunno why our relation will bcm like tat..and nid to say at here..gambateh o..dear...being choosen as chairman of phycology society..geng nia..haha...really thanks for being patient and everything u had done to me...although i dunno appreciate everything u had given to me...but..really thank you....this is chen teng teng ma..must accept the reality..haha...

Another quite happy de thing is one of my boy's fren said there are some misunderstood between me n her tat's why i felt she looked like bu shuang me...but..nw we had clearify everything and hope can be true fren wif her...haha...more one fren better than more 1 enermy rite?mayb i treat them gud, i will gt the treatment as i did.....ha...and really thanks all my boy's fren..they really treat me very well although i do nt have the opportunity to be voted for treasurer, they still support me....chat wif me...tat moment really very happy le..haha ..anyways...really thanks u all...Thank You...all this words really from my deep heart core...

shock......

While i trying to search for some info for my tutorial ans, i gt a call from my cousin bro's...really shock...dunno wat happened...he suddenly called me...i tot he will cum kampar soon, but he told me mummy is with him nw...he said mummy in hospital le...going to have laser for her eyes...Her eyes had been red for almost one month...i told her to check she said mayb her "lao hua" increase dy and owiz told me recovered dy...who know nw she need to go for specialist...is her telling white lie tat dunwan me worry so much?i really shock and sad when knew it...nw crying like a fool...And dunno whether 2ml can contact her or nt..dunno what time is her minor operation oso...and i dunno wat to do le........really hope everything will be alrite for mummy.....god bless you...ma....and i love u so much...muacks........

attitude and behavior...

Just now had read someone's blog.....really felt strange why those people do not know their own behavior de?strange...Things already passed tot she will put it aside...but i try to greet her or even smile wif her, she still bai those "bu shuang"de look...suan le....she likes to do so den up to her lar...i already settle down myself and try to forget those make me unhappy moment.... but i will still felt regret when lost dis fren...think deeply who tell her like to stick ppl's bf 1st wor?is it? from this lesson i had learnt something...start from now i will appeciate every frens tat appears in my life...i will think twice before i do.....i won't let my attitude control my behavior...